Thursday, November 09, 2006
3:46 AM
Life is getting bored.. work work work and the usual routine..
everything is like not getting any where.. ( tear)
stayin with my family is not fruitful also.. see them also like dun see like this..
like a floating spirit moving ard trying to find someone that understand..
but no one.. just no one.. i wan to change change.. i dun like the Maxim that i know..
always giving way to others.. and in the end get hurt and get blame for doing so..
Just feel so empty.. Drain.. Tired.. miserable.. lost ( Tear)
how can we as pple live the fullest in life??
I cant figure out any formula..
I used to be happier.. but now is like i have no energy to do any more..
My Sept Dad is in Hospital after An Operation..
The One i really hate for life...
I wan to visit him but something in me keep telling me NO!!!
i am Battling with myself... (Tear)
But i have decided that i wont.. cos there isnt anyway for me to forgive him..
I wan to get out of where i am staying.. i dun like the atmopshere at home..
i know i am not the worst but as a person its the worst for me..
I wan to have my own family next time without my kids going through wat i went through
i wan a wife then will always be ther for them.. even if she works as long as she try her best..
Just very upset about things in life..
Love / Hate
Maxim
